Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Single man

"Waking up begins with saying am and now. That which has awoken then lies for a while staring up at the ceiling and down into itself until it has recognized I, and therefrom deduced I am, I am now. Here comes next, and is at least negatively reassuring; because here, this morning, is where it has expected to find itself: what’s called at home.

But now isn’t simply now. Now is a cold reminder: one whole day later than yesterday, one year later than last year. Every now is labeled with its date, rendering all past nows obsolete, until — later or sooner — perhaps — no, not perhaps — quite certainly: it will come.

Fear tweaks the vagus nerve. A sickish shrinking from what waits, somewhere out there, dead ahead."

Christopher Isherwood, A Single Man

1 comment:

  1. I like this, though it isn't my POV. It's fun to read it, to halt with it.

    I think of now as warm - this moment, that is real, unlike the last one that is no more, or the one to come that isn't yet.

    We have this movie on our queue. I like Colin Firth. I wonder if it will be close to the book.